Saturday, July 24, 2004

Reformatted Com and a fruitful week
 
yup, i've been procrastinating a lot in blogging... not that i'll eventually slip into not blogging and this thing will come to a close... it's just that i find so many things to do these days that i don't have much time to actually be bored enough in front of the computer to blog... haha...

to me, my blog is a testimony... that's why it's public... testimonies are meant to be shared, to edify one another, to build one another up. At the same time, if we blog negative stuff, it affects other people too...

reformatted my computer on monday. i still don't have my printer and cd burner drivers installed... need to find the install cds somewhere. It feels so clean now... lack of errors... lack of Internet Explorer problems... it's like mass cleaning a room after it's been cluttered for ages... (eh jae?). But at the same time, i don't have the usual stuff i'm used to having... my specially configured microsoft powerpoint by pastor kaiming... so when i did projection for this sunday, everything was missing.... so took a little longer than usual... finding all the little stuff that i usually need... should get round to configuring it soon...

Also, managed to get quite a bit of work done in school... happy to say for once that i'm actually relatively on time with my work and deliverables...
Met Joy on wednesday night... walked around the gardens estate quite a bit while talking.... never really had a conversation that long with Joy before.... even last time when i talked to her more often. But i must say that i enjoyed it, was a good time of fellowship and sharing... (Joy if u actually read this, thanks...)
today (sat), i went to worship leader training at 2 again... was another good time of discussion and insights... Ying Hock mentioned one thing which was, we should never think that we have "made it" as a worship leader... in fact, the more we think that we haven't "made it", the better we are at worship leading and progressing as a worship leader. I guess that was something i have to check with myself... i like to think that i've had a lot of experience as a worship leader... but still there are higher heights, greater depths.... more ground to cover.... even though i may not really see it.
Then met Serene to discuss lesson plan for sunday's YM lesson. Another good time of sharing and discussion as well... have a solid plan for tomorrow's lesson...
I just sortof realised that my whole life is about being active in ministry... i enjoy it... well, i knew that i was active in ministry, but i was talking to a friend online, and i reminded myself that my life is serving God... i love to do His work in church, in whatever needs to be done.... I just really enjoy it... that's why i want to enter full-time ministry...
But that is also entirely up to God and His plan for me... for the time being, not unless He calls me out of it, i wanna try and work as a youth worker after my NS... then from there i'll probably go to TTC... we'll see how it goes i guess.

Sunday, July 18, 2004

In Rememberance Of...
 
another 1 week interval between blogging... oh well, it's not that i don't haven anything to write, but sometimes i just feel too tired to blog, that and the fact that my computer is screwed. Will be reformatting my com tomorrow.
 
Mr. Wee Hian Chor passed away this week... I believe it was a very saddening time for a lot of people... Even though i didn't know him personally, or wasnt close to his 2 daughters who come to YM, i will always remember him as someone who made an impact on the church. Never before has Trinity Methodist prayed so fervently and powerfully till now. A large deal of it had to do with us praying for Mr. Wee... It had a part to play in the revival during Youth Camp 2003, as well as a lot of prayer meetings. Just because the church cared and prayed hard for one individual, it has become a lot closer than before, and a lot closer to God as well.
 
People complain about having no gifts, only having weaknesses. weaknesses that will never help in any ministry... or so they believe. I remember a story about a man in the daily bread. The man stuttered. He couldn't put together full sentences without having to repeat a word several times. He knew he was a bad speaker. Everyone in the church knew he was a bad speaker. Yet, one sunday, he went up to the pulpit... and read the scripture reading. Just because he made the decision to go up and do it despite his disability, many people in the church felt it was very meaningful, and leaders stepped forward.
Mr. Wee was not around long enough to show us what other gifts God had given him. Many people will only remember that he was a sickly person. But even though he only had that disease to be remembered by, to me I will always remember him as the man who made TMC become a more prayerful church. Truly, his imperfection made God's strength perfect.
 
"My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness." -2 Cor 12:9
A weakness can become a strength only with God.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Youth Sunday 2004

rite, i woke up at 6.30pm after taking a 2 hour nap... simply so tired after today's events.
9am worship was good, although after i played the 1st song, my guitar ran out of battery. Thank God Weicheng covered while i scavenged for another 9V battery from his tuner. Pastor Alvin Chan talked about reaching out to the less fortunate youths out there. Statistically, there are around 1/2 a million pple aged 13-29 who the methodist churches are "not reaching out to". Meaning that despite all the many churches we have and our ability to reach out to youth in the methodist schools like ACS MGS Geylang Methodist etc... there are still a huge range of youths who arent being reached out to. I felt happy that i was helping out with the Boys Brigade in Serangoon Gardens Sec, but i felt i could still do more for my school mates...

Then after 9am worship, i led worship for the YMM training after that. Wouldnt say that it went bad... just that i didnt plan it properly due to constraint of time and energy with playing for 9am and all. I know i could've done a better job. (not that i'm taking it as a duty either)
After that, i was practically a walking zombie. went home, bathed, called jae about when he needs the drums over at his place, stoned in front of the tv for awhile then retired to my bed for 2 hours.

woke up and surfed for awhile and found a song that was sung during Creative Arts Ministry Camp back in June. It sorta summed up all of my day/week. Despite all that happened, my brother leaving for another church, the difficulty in organising the 9am worship, the screw ups, mishaps and other worships, in the end i still say "Blessed Be Your Name"

Blessed Be Your Name - Matt & Beth Redman

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be your name

Saturday, July 10, 2004

gonna be tiring tomorrow

k, just back from my grandma's birthday... had laksa, lots of prawns with salad and egg as well as two steaks... man i have to start doing longer times on the treadmill now.

tomorrow is Youth Sunday... it came so fast... one moment i was pestering myself whether i should ask to lead worship or not. now, i'm playing guitar for tomorrow. i feel a bit heavy hearted knowing that "he" isn't playing for tomorrow. his final decision in the end was not to play. so jae is playing drums instead. Which i am rather grateful and happy about at the same time. welcome back jae if u read this. (also now that he isn't going to be around anymore, do u wanna stick with the drums then i concentrate on bass? or do u wanna take bass, then i'll try drums? let me know. i think u'll laugh though)

also have to lead worship for the YMM training tomorrow. So in a sense, i'm involved with 2 worships in 1 day. Not to mention the transportation of drums etc...

actually managed to talk to Jacob yesterday. rather glad about that, it was very refreshing. Didnt get to talk to my mentor for about 2 months coz the both of us were very busy with stuff.
It's always such a revelation to me everytime he talks to me. I have no idea why other people don't have that effect on me, but i'm glad that he has such a huge impact on my life. i remember around 2 years ago, when he hadn't mentored me yet, i told some pple during sharing that if i could be as wise as Jacob, i would be very thankful to God. I held Jacob in very high regard. When he did start mentoring me, at first it was extremely difficult. He threw me into a lot of "deep ends of the pool" and made sure i swam. Now i see things in a very new light. I owe Jacob a lot of thanks. Thanks that he has let God use him so much in my life.

Thursday, July 08, 2004

collapse

ok, havent blogged in like a whole week... reason being that i've been so busy with so many things.. busy with school work as well as organising the band lineup for youth sunday, not to mention several other things... so never actually had time to get around to blogging. It's really tiring and draining to organise this, especially when i cant get done what i envision to do. In my heart, i just want to give our best to God.
However, someone just isn't willing and is even thinking of going away to another church. Despite the fact that he plays a gigantic role here in the youth band. it's equivalent to losing a leg or an arm if he leaves, and other people will have to cover up for that missing limb. probably me. what confuses me is that i'm very sure God placed in my heart a beautiful vision. A vision where all the youth will worship God in spirit and in truth with the full band. he was part of that vision. today he will make his final decision to play for this coming youth sunday. I really don't want to see him leave, simply because he has the ability and capacity to make a huge difference to those under him right now.
Sometimes i think i may be the only person around who feels that no matter what happens to me, i will never leave TMC, not unless i enter full-time ministry and God moves me to another church.
But i will never leave TMC on the basis that i have a problem or am not growing. If i am not growing or i have a problem, then it's for me to change, not the church to change. But in that sense it's the same thing, because i am part of the church. If there is a problem, i should seek the Lord and change myself and those involved with it, to follow His path even more closely. I simply do not see that other churches might be any different from TMC in terms of their shortcomings. Maybe different shortcomings from TMC, but shortcomings none the less. If there was a perfect church, there would be no human beings in that church. It is what we do in that church and the difference we make in our brothers and sisters lives that matters.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

more pics

more pics from the competition...



the chains are attached to a ocean liner we had to pull...
heh... just kidding... 6 links of boat anchor chains... around 45 kg for each link.




chains again... i look constipated




better look of the truck... they made it look reallyyy cheesy with the horns and the eyes and teeth....
guy pulling is joseph, erik's training partner.




150kg bridgestone tires, had to flip it 8 times... this is probably my 7th flip, explaining why Mani was assisting me in holding the tire up. (btw, Mani doesnt pull trucks like the rest of us... no siree... he pulls trucks with his teeth... that's why he's not allowed to compete anymore)




Trap Grip event... rules are simple... hold on to the 30kg cement blocks for as long as you can...
guy in the middle grinning to himself? that's Johari... one of the 2 gym instructors... just about as strong as Mani...