Monday, April 30, 2007

I'm sooo gonna be zonked tomorrow

sunday night and i just got home from crashing someone's birthday party. Ok, so i kinda know the guy, but i only like met him once. Still doesnt quite justify me being there. But a few old friends here and there. Mr. Andrew Chang Zhong Ren for one... my primary school best friend. who now has very long hair and has grown fairly tall, though not as tall as me. still as spaz as when we were 10, though toned down a bit. His gf looks like him. o_O
Met a CQ coursemate as well. Mr. Leong Tze Hao. now with long dyed hair and a spiffy pink I/C. bah.

Also, after seeing that much talent all in one place that night... i suddenly feel very inferior as a musician again. arg. i really should get down to practicing more. i think i need someone to teach me... but then time's a factor right now... silly army...

anyway, i will update a more proper/sensible post soon hopefully. either that or i'll slump into lazy blogging mood again.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Give me Jesus

went down to Chen Su Lan home again yesterday with Third Place again. I personally find it very hard to actually do these kind of voluntary work stuff... but at the end of the day, it's all about denying oneself and understanding what God wants and not what i want.

But somehow or another, something good always turns out from these things. God used the whole weekend and stuff to remind me of a lesson that i learnt some time ago, and reinforced it once again.
Been reading this book for cell grp... it's titled "In the Name of Jesus" by henri nouwen. Jacob passed me the book quite some time ago, so decided to read it over again. The author's a qualified professor from harvard, but one day his ministry brought him to serve full time as a chaplain at a home for the mentally retarded. His reasonings and profound theology suddenly served no purpose whatsoever. you can't talk reason to someone who has no reason. that was what it really meant to be nothing before God except a vessel for His work. Bringing nothing out of one's own skills or intelligence, except his own heart.

A few times while i've been through army, i've always asked myself what would happen if i lost a hand, an arm, a leg, my sight, my voice? I realised how much i take for granted these normal abilities and i cannot fathom what i would do without them. Mostly cos i'm thinking, i would never be able to play the guitar if i lost the use of my hand. I wouldnt be able to run or walk for a leg. i wouldnt be able to see the people i love, for my sight. I wouldnt be able to sing, for my voice. But what if one day, that really happens and i lose my ability to play the guitar and sing? how does that affect my service to God? what does it really mean to come before Him, without talent or ability and still serve Him with my whole heart?

All these things were going through my head while we were at Chen Su Lan. Prior to that, i had the song "Give me Jesus" from Mark's worship set for this coming Saturday. Really reminded me of what i should consider important in my life. the things this world favours, or what God favours. When i come to Die, Give me Jesus... because He's what matters at the end.

Give Me Jesus

In the morning when I rise,
In the morning when I rise,
In the morning when I rise give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus, give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
But give me Jesus.

And when I am alone,
Oh, and when I am alone,
And when I am alone give me Jesus.

And when I come to die,
Oh, and when I come to die,
And when I come to die, give me Jesus.

You can have all this world,
You can have all this world,
You can have all this world,
But give me Jesus.