Wednesday, October 24, 2007

words cant describe how angry/ cheesed off/ frustrated i am right now. I don't think i can recall another time i have been this angry. i'm likely to kill something right now just to vent.

Friday, October 19, 2007

Exodus @ ACS (I)

Ok, i know i havent blogged in ages. Especially even after coming back from Thailand. But i'm not quite ready to throw in the towel for blogging yet. There are times in my life where i feel there's something really important to document. Either that or i am just in the mood for typing and spazing on this small small portion of the WWW.

Gotta go back to camp in abt 2 and 1/2 hrs time to do my extra guard duty. Long story. perhaps another time, but i gonna keep this short.

Went down to ACS Independent today for the Exodus concert, to help Truthmin in whatever way i could. Ended up singing and playing guit for a few songs without much practice once again. One of the songs "God-shaped hole" had an acoustic intro to it, and i could definitely play it. However, Reg had practiced quite a bit for that song on acoustic and everyone decided that he will still play it in the end. He did play in the end, and although it wasn't perfect, i believe it stood for something among us. That perfection ain't as important as honouring another person's feelings and hard work at the end of the day. I hope that small act carried out to the congregation. Sadly, i could see in that in the band that played before us, they felt that every small detail of their music must be a specific style and arrangement according to their liking. It became an obsession to them.

Anyway, this was so important to me because i remember back when i was starting to learn how to play guit, i practiced really hard for one worship session, only to be replaced by another guitarist at the last moment by the band leader because he could pull it off better than i could. the same scenario happened 2 years later with the exact same guitarist, just that this time the roles were reversed. I was supposed to replace the other guitarist instead, but i turned it down because i remembered how terrible it made me feel.

It really warmed my heart standing back and watching Reg play with the rest of the band, even though i was very tempted to just play instead of him. The act of it stood for something more than just worship by music, it was worship by actions and deeds.

ok, gotta go get my 2 and 1/2 hours of sleep in now.